Hello everyone...

Hmm, since I said I wouldn't update until I got some pictures, and I like to stick to my word, so here we go.  This is me dying my hair like a while ago at Rayna's house.

Rayna was taking pictures with her webcam cause she gotta big laugh outta me with that shnazzy cap on. 

Well, I honestly don't know what else to say.  The lyrics of this song are very good, and describes what I feel pretty well...

"I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong, so wrong"

*I miss you so much, more than anything else in this world, more than anyone truly knows...and I love you even more than that...*

~Joe

BTW - HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENNIS KIM!!  CRAZY BASTARD YOU BETTER THROW A PARTY!  EVEN IF YOU DON'T...NO WAIT, JUST THROW ONE!

Wow looks like I'm updating this again.  I need to get a freaking scanner or webcam or something so I can put some damn pictures on this thing.  I need some freaking pictures!!  Well what can I say.  This week has been a bitch.  No it has been a bitch for a while now, not just this week...

Damnit...so many memories, how time flies by.  Going off to college soon and leaving all that I care about behind.  This has been on my mind recently, as has other stuff.  *Sigh*  I regret a lot of stuff but it's too late now.  I should have told you that I truly love you when I had the chance.  =/ 

~Joe

P.S.  Until I get some fucking pictures to put up on this bitch I'm not going to update.

Hello everyone.  Here is a bit of a very good song...quite touching actually.

I can't pretend anymore that I am not affected I'm not moved.  I can't lie to myself that I am not always thinking of you.  You make me strong...show me I'm not too weak to fall in love.  I thought that I would never need, now I can't get enough.  I always made it on my own, I always thought that I would keep control.  You changed everything that I believe in, and now I just fight this feeling, baby. 

I raise my hands and I surrender.  Cause your love in too strong and I can't go on without your tender arms around me.  I raise my hands and I surrender.  I dont want to resist casue the touch of your kiss has shattered my defenses, I surrender.

I have to admit that I never thought I would need someone this way.  But you captured my heart and I can't get you outta my head.  You lift me up, higher than I have ever been before.  You opened my eyes so that I could see so much more...

Laura Pausini - Surrender (Mike Rizzo Mix)

Todays words of the wise (the wise being none other than me of course) :  Cherish and hold on to what you have now, for you never when it will all be over.  But once it is over, take it all in stride without looking back.  Only the future can be changed and made brighter by your choices, the darkness of the past cannot.

~Joe

P.S.  I should write a mother fucking book filled with wise ass words from me.

To You:

I thought that things were going to be okay, and that I could live without you by my side...but after seeing you again, it seems I am back to where I was 3 months ago...once again thinking about you all the time.  When I see you, when I look into your eyes, it makes my heart melt and as we separate and grow apart, it just makes my heart sink.  Perhaps it was never meant to be but how could something that was never meant to happen feel so true?  How could something that is false make me feel so complete deep down inside?  I guess these are questions that cannot be answered.  Maybe I should've just left, maybe that would have been the smart thing to do, but I couldn't just let it end like that.  Coming back just felt so right to me at the moment, but perhaps it was foolish of me now thinking in retrospect.  Perhaps this is the right thing to do and there will be no regrets...and hopefully you've found some peace and happiness when you lie down to sleep at night.  I guess this is good-bye, but I know you will have a place deep inside my heart forever.

~Joe

Alright I guess I'll start updating this shit again, just for the hell of it.  I'll try to put up a picture or some shit too.  I dont know what to type though...other than I don't give a fuck.  Thats the best line ever.  Just live life as it fucking is.  SO fuck you bitch.

"Wow, not giving a FUCK!"

~Joe